yesterday's time at this time
In your 20s, you don't die
“In your 20s, you don't die" is a photographic project created from images obtained through CT and MRI brain scans. The images of the skull, viewable exclusively through the program offered in the diskette released by the hospital, were made by screenshots at the monitor of the computer. The proposed intervention is a compositional, graphic and photographic one.
The images are immediately proposed as a reflection of belonging. They were not taken by me, but by machinery, set up by lab technicians. I did not desired to take them, yet they are totally mine. They are documents of me for the use
of others, so that I may continue to live. If the doctors, had not prescribed me the tests and interpreted them, I would never have known what I look like and how I am. I would define the proposed images as universal self-portraits: common in the human structure and just as many singular ones. Hence the theme of heroic resistance in the social chain. I have been told that my brain seems not to belong to a girl of my age, it is typical of the elderly, it is smaller and more hollowed out, it looks like it has been retreated from a whole life, yet it is young. I feel like I'm a lifelong veteran. I tried to die in every way, especially of love, but on a day when I didn't want to, I almost succeeded. I have lived life ardently, but summarily. I insulted her
Without understanding that she was mine as much as I was hers. What if everything had ceased on August 23.
2022? I only had time to think, "Fuck, it's over."
I lost consciousness. Amnesiac upon my awakening. I could have slipped away from the presence, from what unites us
all of us in space and time.
I would not have even noticed.
Existing is not living, thinking is not perceiving. Life, death, mind, body I inhabit them in multiple dimensions, but it is difficult to see them from the outside, to see them alone.